Journal Entry #15
Teaching my first sequence
Well, I did it. I taught my first sequence tonight. I was completely nervous and vulnerable. I have been thinking about this night since the beginning of the semester, but I didn’t think I would still be so nervous about finally teaching in front of my peers.
I went into class tonight feeling okay, but nervous and I definitely had a front put on so I didn’t seem too nervous. Luckily, though, I was the first one in the group, so I at least got to get it out of the way. I started with some sun salutations and went through them pretty effortlessly. We finished the sun salutations with setting the intention for the class and a meditation. In this mediation I wanted to set the intention for being authentic and for being grateful for my authenticity. I was very vulnerable at this point and I really allowed myself to reveal some things I didn’t intend to reveal, but it worked for what I was working for.
We moved into some more powerful poses and I decided to end in a few restorative poses. I liked my sequence and felt that it wasn’t too much of a cool down, even though it was somewhat restorative at the end.
After I read some of the comments from my classmates, I felt that my intention was understood and felt and that people were receptive to it. Even though the comments in the areas that I could improve were constructive and only meant to help me to be a better teacher, I still felt a twinge of sadness and self-confidence drop after reading them. I know that the more I practice the better I’ll become, so I’m just trying to focus on growth and on walking like thunder through my training and know that I can do this.