Journal Entry #8- Live Now

Katie Willden

YTT III

Journal #8

 

Live Now

 

            The only day that we can truly have any control over is today.  There is no point in looking to the future except to set goals and there is no point in looking to the past except to learn from it.  So many people in our society get so caught up in holding grudges from the past and not fully moving on.  Constantly looking to the past keeps us from truly moving forward in our lives.  I see this so often, but it is in front of my face constantly because of my little brother and his struggles.  He has suffered from major depression in his life and the common thing I noticed about his thinking cycles was that he always got hung up on something in his past.

            I have struggled with depression in my life as well and still struggle with it.  It has been a constant thought in my head and it wasn’t until the last year or so that I got really committed to getting through my depression.  In getting serious, I had to look at the way I think and really decide which methods were not serving me in my mental health.  I noticed that there is a common denominator in the way I think and the way my little brother thinks.  We have a habit of looking in the past rather than just living now.

            Once I made this realization, I have been trying really hard to correct the thought pattern.  It is difficult because I have to be aware of myself at all times.  I have to remember to not think that way.  It has been getting easier as time has passed, though, and I’m dealing with my depression much more effectively than I ever did before. 

            One of the hardest things in life is to not get hung up on what happened in the past or what could happen in the future.  When I find myself in a depressed state, I just need to remind myself to just live now.  The past has already happened and there’s nothing I can do to change anything from it expect for learn from it and move on.  The future has yet to happen and there’s no reason to stress myself out about it unnecessarily.  Life can be so overwhelming for me and I really have to be conscious of my thinking so I can always live now and keep my depression at bay.

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